I'm so sick of Singapore! It's like, could you please point me in the direction of a less conservative, less developed concrete jungle? All this talk of Singapore being a 'Garden City' is just bullshit: the only trees I see are the ones that line the roads. Other than that, there does't seem to be any 'garden' with the exception of Singapore Botanical Gardens, and that one isn't even natural. There is nowhere you can just sit down by a nice big tree and read. Ever heard of climbing trees? Nope, not in Singapore. Its making me so sick, that the only natural scenery I get to see isn't even real: it's planted by the government. With all the trees Singapore boasts of having, never once have I actually been able to brush my fingers against the rough feel of tree bark. Never once.

It's not as if I find happiness in buying stuff: the only things I am willing to spend all my money on are books, and Singapore doesn't really have the widest selection. Popular is a sorry excuse for a bookstore, I can look at every shelf (which is usually just one) and still I won't be able to find a notable author with an interesting book. The only books I find there are Jodi Picoult, James Patterson and Cecelia Ahern. And the classical section is just horrendous. Puffin should really make books with better covers. They never have Hemingway, or Thoreau, and sometimes even Jack London! I mean really? How can you not have 'Call of the Wild'? The only good bookstore in Singapore is Borders, and that one is all the way in Orchard, I hardly have the time to go there. At least there I can roam the bookshelves for hours, and still be spoiled for choice. At least there I can pick out great authors, and not be afraid to spend money on their books even if I've never heard of them. At least there I can find poems from W.H. Auden (though the book costs like $50 and there is only one banged up copy) even if it's too heavy to carry back home. Popular really sucks.

I watched 'Twilight' last Saturday. It wasn't half bad, but that was only because it was Kristin Steward, who is a great actress and has really awesome buck teeth. Her character however, wasn't so perfect. I still don't get why she wants Edward so damn much, its like she dies if she can't have him. I really don't know why she has to depend on him so much, it wasn't as if he did anything that romantic or to die for. I hardly even saw his affection toward her. She's just too needy, and I hate girls like that. I mean, come one, I'M the feminist here. Girls rule, boys drool! But still, the scenery was great, I never knew places like that even existed now, and those towering trees were really awesome. When Bella and Edward were on top of them, I wondered how and where they attached the safety ropes to. I can't even imagine stunt doubles doing the stuff they did, those trees were enormous! Maybe four, five stories high, probably a lot higher. How am I supposed to know when the trees are only 2 stories high here in Singapore? I wonder if they were redwoods. God, what I'd give to be able to climb a redwood! I've always loved redwoods. To me, trees are only beautiful if they are extremely thick and tall. They have to be ancient to catch my eye.

Christmas is coming, and right after that, SMP results are out. If we don't get in, then it's over. Gone. Finito. Damn, the anticipation is killing me! Please let us be accepted! There can't just be ONE CGS team, not this year!